I agree on the PTSD. My IC told me the other day he felt I was dealing with a level of PTSD given all that I had been through.
I think you are still in the middle of the war zone and suffering some PTSD. I am not sure how to deal with it yet except to get as far from the situation you can and get the support you can and give yourself time to heal.
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