Complex #5 - progress and throwbacks

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My fifth one already. Time is passing by.

Complex #4

Not too much change since last thread.

- In home separation still going on.
Getting better in going W out of the way not being needy, better detached but recently we have more communication. Which kind of hurts my detachment. So I have be very cautious. The more contact I have with her the more I feel how much I love her.
- On meds now due to depression, 3rd day in and it's wearing on me. Doctor told me the first couple weeks things might get worse but it'll start working very well after 4-6. Very anxious feelings. Body aches, insomnia. But I'm hanging in there.
- Big trust issues with W, not sure if EA turned PA, although I don't think so, I'm sort of prepared for it. There is s chance of very low contact between W and OM too.
- Think I have controlling issues. W knows I have them. I really want to work on them. Lot of thinking right now how to interpret what W is telling me. Need to let go better.
- Seeing IC, guess it's helping although my expectations are usually too high
- No D talk in 2-3 weeks. Moving out talk calmed down, living situation got slightly better, less stressful situations also due to better detachment.
- Family and (most) friends still not involved. My mom is about to blow it tho. Makes me concerned, not sure what it'll cause.
- Multiple friend and family event invitations on facebook and so on, family event coming up where I have obligations. W and dad will be there. Need some real life advice how to deal with those. Ignore? Just cut mutual friends out?
- GAL going ok. Gym, surfing, college classes, IC, job search, diverse doctor appointments, volunteer search (can't find anything). Still to do: See mediator/attorney for information, volunteer, go see a priest, dentist.
- Got two new books: "Connecting through yes" by Jack Ito. "Love must be tough" by James Dobson. Excited to read them.

That's all I can think of right now. Totally worn due to lack of sleep


Happy Valentines Day (Which I didn't even mention towards W today, mission accomplished) and again thanks for answering my questions, helping me understand and kicking me back into DB reality when I need it!!!