I am so sorry to read your posts since last night.
I agree with Pattie and Dazed, though, and don't feel that anything here is hopeless.
Go to your parents for a few days. And yes, I agree with Dazed that you should tell Dustin--he is the father of your S with you, and should know where you guys are.
Think about the things that you want to address in IC. Make a list of them so you don't forget. And then get into C as fast as your legs can carry you.
Myrrh, please don't make ASSumptions that Dustin isn't willing to work on things. He probably doesn't solve problems the way you do, but he appears to love you deeply. That sort of love implies that if both parties commit to working on things--agreeing on the destination, not necessarily the path--you can do just about anything.
If Mr. W. told me he loved me in any fashion: billboard, letter, words, smoke signal, that would be the end of my fears of his indifference.
Use this knowledge to guide you. Even if Dustin can't live like this any longer, you're going to feel better about yourself in the long run. And you deserve that, dear friend.
I'll check back later.
Big hugs,
Bets
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
