Thank you Karma. I copied all of the posts on detachment into an email I have saved on my phone and I will read them over and over. Today I will be taking kids to a movie and lunch to let them have fun and for me to stay busy.
This is the first V day in 28 years I have not given her a card or gift and certainly would be a mistake on my part to do anything this year so I wont. Very lonely and sad feeling to know she is getting flowers and gifts from another. I keep reading references to WAW can snap out of it. It seems very unlikely for me.
I don't want and I'm not ready for another person in my life but is it wrong that I wish I could go to a movie with someone and hold someone's hand? I just miss company and affection. It's hard to go without for so long but I realize this is where I am in life. Maybe just V Day emotions.
Will do my best to perk up today and keep her out of mind and thoughts. I'm happy I have my kids today.
M: 44 W: 45 Married 26 Together 28 D: 22, S: 18, S: 9, D: 7 S: 12/2013, seperate houses OM revealed first 10/2013, stopped seeing him OM revealed 1/2015, been going on for quite some time
