So today and this weekend is going to be particularly hard. As much as I know that my W moving out is going to allow me more of the freedom to detach and to stop a lot of the cake eating that is going on. I still can't help but view this as a bit of a set back to my sitch. Are things continuing with her and the OM, yes. Does she constantly only pay me and the kids attention only when she feels like it, yes. I am trying my best to stay positive and up beat about all of this... certainly from a DB side, but it has been extremely hard to do. I really wish she wasn't so damn stubborn. I guess we will just have to take this one day at a time right now. I know I have read so many stories of things changing at a moments notice, that even the day before a WAW snapped out of it they were texting their OM/OW. Its hard to take solace in those stories right now but I'm trying. I have tried also to analyze my own work a bit. Tried to figure out if I'm actually getting better in the place that I need to. That has been a hard one to answer, I want to say yes, I think it gets muddied by the constant spew I have been dealing with though. This is a 180 for me though, to simply let her go, to not say anything, to let her make this decision on her own. But this is very hard work, and a very hard thing to do.
M:34 W:34 D:8 D:5 M:10 T:15 BD: 10/10/14 D filed: 10/21/14 PA/EA:09/2013 EA:09/2014 - on going (online)
