When I hired my lawyer, I got an itemized listing each month showing the dates, what type of work, the dollar amount for said work and a running tally of what I had paid and owed. You should ask your attorney for this information. It should be readily available and sent to you on a monthly basis. At least that way, you can see what you are paying for.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
