It is pathetic that he is also my closest friend. I feel really lost without him. He said today he wants me to be happy but he knows he is not the one that can make me happy.
I'm not sure what I get out of this marriage really. But he sees all my flaws and craziness and accepted them for many years. And I accept his. I must admit, one of my resistance is due to the fact that I am afraid to be alone. He did love me for a long time and that made me feel "normal". Like I can blend in with people without anyone notices that I'm so off.
Me 44; H 48 no kids together; H has D24, D19 M 14; T 18 DB 12/21/14 living together (for now)
