I have fear of being a mother. Long story short - I was physically abused by my mother so I always know i don't want to be like her. meaning, hating my own kid or not loved by them. So that led to never want to have kids. My husband knew this early on but I guess deep down he always thought he could change my mind. I was never open for discussion on this topic. Plus, I never trust him enough.
Adoption will give me the same fear. I did think that if his 1st wife died, I would adopt his kids.
His kids are adults. They dont need to be adopted.
