W still having PA with OP

[4mendmj]

Last night I tried a 180. I am the kind of person that wants to know what the plan is and if you don't tell me, I will probably ask you again until I find out what it is. Earlier this week W announced she was going to the movies with friends (including OW) Friday night. I told her I was off at 7pm and asked if she was taking D6 to my work to drop her off or if I was coming home and she was leaving right away. She said she would let me know...she never did so I never asked. 7pm comes and there is W and D in the parking lot waiting for me. I guess that answers that.

W did not get home until 2:24am this morning. I have to work today so before leaving for work, got D6 something to eat and drink and turned on cartoons at least knowing she had her basic needs met and that W was in the other room incase of emergency.

I woke up this morning and started crying. Knowing my W was out until after 2am with OW as the start of Valentine's day and that I was working today and D and I are heading to my folks place for his birthday party tonight...there will be no Valentine's day for me this year. I got a single red rose in a vase yesterday for W and put a note on it To mommy from XXXX and daddy and left it on the table to at least acknowledge the day.

One day at a time. As I have read before, I put a smile on my face, be me and then come here to vent. I haven't let W see me cry in 45 days. I have been living in a temporarily approved open marriage to "give her time" for 45 days. 45 days.