Don't beat yourself up Maybell, just wanted to throw in my support, no words of wisdom about how you're feeling.

You will love and be loved again if you allow it. Let yourself heal. You are an amazing woman! (())

Me-44 (45)
H- 50 (51)
M-'96

S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)

BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas)
home Oct(sep rooms)
(EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed)
insists wants D through July 2015
no more talk of D since