All's quiet on the pussycat front. Aside from the family of origin goings-on, H and I are doing really well.
He is being very supportive of me through this whole drama. Of course, I am being very straightforward about my feelings - no hidden emotion coming out as hostility, crazymaking, whatever.
The only snag - I had a dream last night that H was cheating on me with my best friend M and the OW at the same time. Want to hear the hilarious part? I was trying to DB in the dream. I remember asking myself several times in the dream "okay, how am I going to handle this?"
Several times when I have been successful for a bit at not crazymaking, I have frightening dreams about Dustin and I fighting, him being with someone else, etc. It isn't the dreams that are the problem; it's the feelings and memories they stir up. Of course, waking up and being able to snuggle up to him helped a LOT! I am still somewhat afraid of him lying to me. I don't know if it's because of my feelings about my mom and dad and his constant affairs, or if it's just my brain being resistant ot the changes I am trying to make, and trying to shove me back into my "comfort" zone...but I'll get through it.
I am going out of town next month, and I need to catch up on a lot of things at the house before I go, so today I am going to work out a plan for doing that. I have a huge to do list at work to accomplish, so I will probably not be on as much today.
Anyone have any thoughts on dealing with residual fears and flashbacks? Just looking for pointers... Hugs, Myrrh
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
