Gg you at not old. You are in your prime. It is your time now. I like you was a parent child taking care of the family from a young age. My kids are now all grown and it was an adjustment to become an empty nester.
Life is too short and it's our time now. Put on those ( sexy ) big girl panties and start GAL. Lol I don't chase men either. It takes time but if you are open eventually you will meet someone you fancy. It took me until now to be open to dating. I just wasn't ready any earlier
Me 52 H 44 T9 M 5 BD 12/11 H split 8/12 OW moved in 12/12 OW gone for good 6/14 We get closer again 9/14 SD 13 Me 4 Grown
Accept what is...let go of what was and have faith in what will be.