Journaling - rewind to Valentines 2014, when W and I were separated, she was seeing an OM, and I invited her out on a date. I begged. I pleaded. Wow! what a difference a year makes (thank you DB).
So I bought 3 boxes of chocolates from a local chocolate maker for the kids in town. D20 posted a picture of the chocolates on FB and said that I was her No. 1 Valentine and she loved me (awww.)
I pick up s13 on Friday afternoons, and today when I texted W the time I was coming over, W called me. She asked me to come a little later than I stated, saying she was at a photo shoot, and had her phone off, and she wanted to spend a little time with s13 in case he was mad at her (too much detail?). I agreed, then her voice did that strange thing of being nervous, and she started speaking quickly in an almost stutter.
She asked me about my planned trip to Las Vegas. I had only told d20, and so I knew where the info came from. She asked me to make sure that my trip did not conflict with d18's trip back in town. I let W know that my planned Las Vegas vacation for next weekend had fallen thru. W said that she was sorry for me.
Then W asked if I would like to have d17 over on Saturday. I misheard her, and I asked if d17 would be staying overnight, with a pit in my stomach with the thought of W clearing her place out for Valentine's night. But W surprised me. She said no, just for the day as d17 has problems sleeping anywhere else besides W's place. I told her "great".
We chatted for a bit when I picked up s13. I know that I have said this before, but I think my W's head is clearing, and that she seems healthier. I am a wee bit tempted to see if she is still on the dating sites, but I think I will stay away for now. Especially this weekend I do not want to inflict any more pain on myself. I will try and keep my focus on me and my kids.
