Hi Myyrh!!
If you think you should be happy, then be happy!!! (Ok, so I don't know what you are talking about.)

I was scanning through your sit. OMG, do we not say some of the EXACT same things? Abusive parents, wanting neg. attn., being so afraid?

Well, at least we all know this now:

FEAR + ANXIETY=CRAZYMAKING!!!

ttys
karen