Mighty everything you are feeling is normal. This is not the way you envisioned yiur life and it takes time to accept that. I remember a IC telling the same to me many years ago. At that time he asked me to start looking at what I wanted my life to look like in the future and change those past pics into some new. Then start making small steps toward that new life.

One thing that has always been something that helps me cope is to give myself things to look forward to. For example when I plan a trip I enjoy the whole planning process. I spend hours researching and getting ideas. Looking a head to something positive as simple as a dinner out helps.

Me 52 H 44
T9 M 5
BD 12/11 H
split 8/12
OW moved in 12/12
OW gone for good 6/14
We get closer again 9/14
SD 13 Me 4 Grown





Accept what is...let go of what was and have faith in what will be.