[BrightFuture]

“Creating a new reality for the child that excludes his or her relationship with the other parent.” – I guess I’m guilty of that. I took my son to another country, away from his biological father. His dad called my son on New Year’s and on his B-day. That was it for communication for a few years. And then it went to zero. My son’s dad was never interested in his son anyway. So, does it make me guilty anyway? Just a rhetorical question anyway.

So, here is what I felt today. I could not resist and looked on H’s FB again. I saw that he is now friends with our former massage therapist girl. Boy, it brought some unpleasant memories. She went to the vacation home with him and his GF a long time ago, when we were still in a “good” marriage. She was supposed to go with her boyfriend, but he canceled and she took her girlfriend. I didn’t go at that time. So, I was very uncomfortable with this whole thing. The massage girl staying at our condo with her GF and my H, without me. I really had a hard time back then. I still remember the feelings.

Plus, on his FB yesterday she was making comments about wanting to come to the vacation home place again. So, my first though was to find the way to prevent that from happening.

So, this morning all that stuff was flashing through my memory and I was a bit agitated. And then… I went to work… I was busy all day… On my way back home I started to think about what I saw on the FB. And then, unimaginable happened! I was like “what is a big deal anyway”… Whatever… He can have a massage girl, a drunken b!tch from his drunken crowd, a trashy woman, a “whatever”… I don’t care anymore. Seriously, I didn’t think I could feel like that in a matter of hours after feeling hurt. I think I’m into something here