The Owl and the Pussycat

[Lyrael]

I didn't want you to freak out, sweetie... there is pretty much nothing that can't be worked out if given a chance to think things through.

That's something I need to hear over and over again.

Breathe.... PMA coming back up?

Whew...slowly. It wasn't you, bets, just the scary memories kin do fswept me away for a bit.

The only reason I recommended posting this is because I think it's helpful for others to see that your midnight calls aren't the result of a quirky obsessive compulsive addiction you have to phones in the middle of the night....

Yes, it is true that there is a reason for my late-night anxiety. He wasn't always just sitting around and playing Everquest...and he wasn't always easy to get in touch with. before he left home especially he would just disappear occasionally - to the beach, with his friend Brad, to a strip club, clubbing with OW. That was when things were at their worst, and I hated not knowing where he was or if he was ever coming home! That's why I have such a problem with not contacting him.

The only time the past is helpful is if you can use it to analyze how to change things now.

He only did that sort of thing when I was in full crazymaking mode.

Let's back up and go over the positives:

1. D told you about his dilemma
2. He did so knowing you might freak out
3. You said that he no longer lets his bus partner take cheap shots at you
4. D feels comfortable enough to tell you this, knowing that he had a R with 19 yr old OW from the parlor.

This is a BIG positive. He might be starting to trust me a little bit again, That is MAJOR.

Let's figure this out. The phone still turns into a pumpkin tonight, right?

Yup - it will officially get all orange and squishy around 10pm or so.

Because there is no need to get worked up, Myrrh.

There really isn't - this hasn't even happened yet. I need to remember to focus on the present and not catastrophize everything.

Hugs right back at you. I am okay.

Myrrh