I started chatting with Betsey today about a sitch I was concerned with, and I started talking about how things used to be when my H was sneaky, dishonest, etc - now the paranoia is creeping back in.
My husband owns a tattoo/body piercing shop and, this time last year, it was Party Central. At a VERY low point, I found pics on his shop computer of girls (including OW) making out with each other and flashing in the shop. It was an absolute NIGHTMARE, and he let it get completely out of hand. As far as I can tell and see, it is NOT that way anymore. They stopped letting huge crowds of people hang out there, my H stopped the partying and booted OW, and he b****ed at his business partner until he stopped being an a*hole to me.
H told me this morning they are thinking about hiring some 16-year-old girl that is one of Joe's relatives or friend's daughters or something, and the idea terrifies me. I was chatting with Bets to get some insight into how I should handle it - he did TELL me about it after all.
But instead of making things clearer, I seem to have just stirred up a whole bunch of old crap for myself emotionally. Now I am in a dangerous spot again - I have contacted my H WAY too much today, and he;ll probably completely stop telling me anything if I don't calm down (he doesn't know how freaked I am).
Anyway, the shop craziness is why I go so nuts at night - I was used to imagining what might be happening.
And the PMA takes a dive... HELP!!!!
Myrrh
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
