Oh, honey... I'm so sorry. I know it stings and feels like rejection... and well... I know how THAT feels right now! BUT. WAIT! I don't think it is as bad as you think. I really don't!
I think they see your talent and like you, so they need to find the right fit for you. They want to utilize your talents to the fullest extent. They know you have them, so they are looking to guide you to use them!
Heather, I know it feels like a set back, but this could be what is in store for you. Where you were supposed to go. I know some things fit. Some things feel right with you being there. Now, they are willing to help you figure out another piece- your job, to be the right fit.
It's OK! You can do this. And, what's the worst that could happen? This hurts and is so uncomfortable right now. I get it. And the feeling of nothing solid to hold on to... ugh. To feel like you are trying to take on the world alone... But, Heather- you have been doing it. And you have grown so much. So, if this doesn't work out... well.... that just means you aren't there yet- you haven't found exactly where you will excel to be the best you... the happiest and most fulfilled you!
This could be the best thing that has happened at this job. AND! You still have one! It's ok to ask questions. To ensure you are doing what they want. That you are reaching their goal with them. I think job said to reiterate what they are saying while still in the meeting.
There is someone whom I work with now, who is in a boss-like position. And, in meetings, what she says is, "So what I'm hearing is......"
She usually does this after listening to everyone kind of go off, complain, talk, brainstorm, whatever. But, she always clarifies at the end, to ensure she understands and everyone is on the same page. Just a suggestion.
This could be such a positive, Heather. Let go of the rejection and fear. They are not rejecting you. I see some good things that they are saying to you. Maybe you could reread and only highlight the positives. Things that you looked at with a sensitive eye (I know what that feels like).
Now, with d12... Wonka may be on to something. Maybe she does not want a schedule like that... but maybe that's what she needs right now? I will be honest, I don't know the particulars of the situation, but I am just thinking that something may need to change with this.
I can tell you schools are better equipped to handle an array of personalities and challenges. Your d isn't necessarily going to be put in special ed, however, don't not do it because of a misconceived, old-school connotation. It could be an amazing place for her. Someplace she thrives and has fun. Meets new friends and people. It would be an adjustment, but... she has been adjusting for quite some time now.
It may be something to consider, Heather. I do think that there would be a lot of benefits. And, there may be some after school clubs or activities for her, too. And, it would save you $ from having to pay for some of those activities. And, can you imagine the burden it would lift from you.
Homeschooling is a huge task to take on. And, really, can you do that right now? If you could take that all off your plate, and know that d12 was in a safe place with people who have her best interest at heart, where she will meet new people and friends and participate in activities, and you could focus on you and your job! Then, your time with d12 will be like a whole different r!
I don't know. I have to be honest; I'm not sure all the details, but something has got to give.
