I feel for you man. Do you have any friends you can go hang out with? Any hobbies that you are interested in that you can pick up? Time to start living.
You really need to get busy GAL. It will help you in more ways than you know.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa