Gogofo - LRT letter - planning a new beginning

[gogofo]

Last night I did not see my W again after she left for a dinner fund raiser.

I took the kids for a ride and fueled up my truck. Tucked the kids into bed and kissed them good night.

I grabbed a glass of wine and went and laid on my bed and read a biography, NOT a relationship book.

When my W came home I resisted my temptation to go and engage her in conversation.

Here is what I will be doing today that will focus on being brave and letting go.

1 - Call L this morning and have him send response to complaint.
2 - Text W a message with my monthly net income to move along the D process.
3 - Meet plumbers at house to fix issue that came up during inspection
4 - When I get home after work keep interaction with W minimal when we are around the kids together.
5 - Meet with my dad and get fire door for the house.
6 - Not be around or up waiting for her when she get home after teaching night class.

I know what I did last night was small, but I am proud of myself for resisting temptation to talk to W and for reading something for pleasure.

Sandi showed me my true colors and I needed it. I need to remain focused at changing these behaviors and being strong and confident and not scared of the D. I need to not be the wimpy scared man that I have been lately and get my balls back.