S started daycare, seems to enjoy it. I miss our days together but it is helpful. His mother is paying for it (for now), I'm sure this will be an issue in the future.
A back injury (weight lifting) has kept me out of the gym for a while, but I think it is slowly starting to get better. I'm going to try swimming tomorrow, hopefully that will help loosen it up. 22 y/o's aren't supposed to have bad backs!
I have a date on Saturday, to go see a movie with my friend. I still don't think either one of us is ready for a relationship, but it will be nice to have a date on Valentine's.
Haven't filed response to paperwork yet, not really even sure how to begin. At this point I just want it to be over & done with.
When I think about her, I just get upset. Not at her necessarily. Things have been rough lately between us, fighting often. When she filed for divorce, I think it took a lot of fight out of me to be civil towards her. Currently we are both feeling like our relationship should only extend as far as raising S and no further. Most of the time I sit around wishing that I never had to see her again, even though I know that isn't possible.
I am still very hurt but I think I've moved past the "denial/bargaining" stage of grief and currently sit somewhere between "anger/depression". I still want to detach, but have had a lot of problems keeping my emotions in check.
For anyone reading, thank you for taking the time. Be well. - ship
Me 23, Her 21 1S 2 M <1yr, T 7 WAW: She moved out 11/15/2014 She started D process 1/29/15
