[BrightFuture]

Bea, thanks for sharing your experience. I value it so much. I hope one day I will be where you are.

Many of us have been fearful of letting go finally because we actually fear this loss of love: we don't always realise it at the time.

I think I realize this, and this exactly why I’m afraid to completely let go.

After we lose the initial love (reach acceptance that the person has really gone) many have a period of complete separation and lose contact and then the whole thing refocuses. MLCers tend, on the whole, to keep in touch, even if only infrequently.

I feel that I’m reaching this state. It is still sort of elusive. Some days I feel it, some days I don’t. I think I know what you mean.
And yes, he is still keeping in touch to make sure I’m not completely “gone”. I can feel it too.

At some point, my desire of “complete separation” has to become stronger than his touch and goes.

LiveNow, I’ve been following your sitch for a long time. I’m glad you are feeling stronger. I remember about the tattoo. You made me think if I should get one, LOL.