If you are new and reading my posts at all please learn from my mistakes. DB101....I'm a year into this and not even close to where I feel like I should be emotionally...maybe on the surface, but not deep down.
I have been a mess the past few days, ready to call it quits mostly over the fact that I was sure H was going to meet some OW this weekend, even failed at snooping to find out. While I have decided that I could forgive him for what has happened in the past, if it continues in the way I was thinking I may not be able to.
H got a call from his attorney yesterday about upcoming Dr visit for his back. He mentioned it to me but the girls started asking questions about it so we dropped it. This morning I asked him what else the attorney had said which started a conversation. He told me that he was not going to his friends this weekend, he was a little disappointed as he was looking forward to it and there is a guy that lives near his friend who is selling original parts he needs for his jeep that he was going to go buy.
My point is I allowed myself to get all worked up because I was so focused on what HE WAS DOING, assumed something that wasn't true and ALMOST ruined any forward progress I have made.
During this conversation I was able to show my support and give some validation to what he is going through. I did tell him I know he has a lot going on and I wish there was something I could do to help but the conversation didn't feel right to continue and tell him that I love and support him. (which does go against Sandi's rules Mahhhty, but since one of the issues in our marriage is that he didn't feel I wanted, loved or appreciated him I don't know that it would be a bad thing.)
Anyway, off the ledge for now, just have to remember and learn from this...
