Yes. I am liking it, too! But... of course... its is very up and down... moment to moment. He texted me a few hours after the plant funeral about s17's phone. He could have just tried s17. I didn't respond, but told s17 to text his dad.
Then, two hours after that, he called my phone. I missed it. And... will not be returning it.
Donno.... donno what he wants from me. Make sure he has a plan b? Well... ain't happenin.
I just keep thinking about how pathetic they are. They are quite a match.
I don't want to be that pathetic person. Not at all. Stepping away certainly is giving me a different perspective. Man, you guys must have really wanted to shake me.
I am still on pretty shaky ground, I will admit. I have some ways to go. I get pretty scared sometimes. Others I feel much better. But, it really has only been like a day. Ha!
I think I know what is coming up for xh's sitch, and it makes me feel a little sick. I know it will still hurt and bother me. However, sometimes I am just like- eh. I think going back there is like more for real this time. Blah.
I still know that he is a mess. He is clueless. But, if he feels happy- so be it.
I ain't worried bout that. Nope. I gotta think about the good things I have going on for me....
Ok, well that was fast.
Just kidding. Looking into flights to get me and the kids outta here for a bit. Whoop whoop! They both have birthdays this month- I think it would be a great present. I don't think we will be able to take a big trip now, but I could get the tickets now for spring break or something.
I am sure by tomorrow I won't hear anymore. A full day of totally ignoring all texts and calls... I am sure he will get it. Who likes rejection?
