I have always kept an eye on your sitch ... admire how strong you are especially when you fail to give yourself credit.
I would beware of the push and pull ... seems to me your xh like to make sure you are still where he left you, I think you see that. Just as his world was crashing down he ran to you .... then baby came and he realized there was not a timer attached to an actual bomb. And remember I told you that while he is still in that tunnel he will be easily manipulated by hww, she has his child and I have no doubt she is pulling the correct strings at the correct time.
Mighty ... you need to let him go, let him bake ... he got your hopes up and that stinks ... I know if my W did the same thing I would have jumped off a cliff to meet her half way ... I get it .... its tough when we have our heads on straight and proper and we try to rationalize their crazy.
He wants it all ... can't blame the guy for trying ... you need to do you for a bit .. like others have said. Stop wasting all that energy on him, hww, and what they are upto ... he made his choice, made his bed, now you need to make yours, start putting yourself first, along with your kids ... you have this.
