Continuing DBing...

[PeterV2]

I hear you Starsky. I know it's a naïve angle, but without intel I don't know anything.

All I know is that she's really mad at me. We spent the evening together last night. I didn't start any R talk so we mostly sat in silence - she was watching TV and doing her nails. I was reading and petting the cat. She did bring up how angry she was at me. I said I only want to have a deep loving marriage. That was it for R talk. But no hug or kiss good night - just a "sleep tight". No hug or kiss good morning. I did sleep very well though. I'm sleeping a lot better at home, even on the couch. Big relief in that sense.

I did go to my MC yesterday evening who commended me for standing up to her. MC said because W has a history of childhood sexual assaults it may take years for her to heal if ever. I think a lot of her angry and resentment are displaced from that, as well as her projecting her own anger at herself onto me. I'm just the closest available target. I won't take it personally. It's not about me, so it seems. Even if it is about me I have a Teflon suit under my spew jacket and a level 4 hazmat suit over top. Layering seems to be my fashion choice nowadays.

I suggested we go on that trip to Grenada and then see how we feel. But I didn't bring up my ongoing intolerance to my state of limbo last night. I figured I'll let her cool down a bit. Let her process the other night a bit more.