Survived the rollercoster by getting off it

[Ggrass]

I'm about to turn 45, I work full time, I try to manage house and farm bits.

Mostly I fail at farm out side stuff and I don't really have the energy to be bothered chasing men for casual hook ups. I'm tired I'm old. I have bills and a life to try and manage.

Going out every night, um no money no energy. While essentially I'm loud and out going personality, I do like a quiet solitary home life. Time for me as yes I've been married and looking after children for close to 20 years. While at home as a ten I was expected to run the house for mum while she worked I cooked 4 nights per week at 13.