I don't agree, I'm just stubborn. She is the world to me. Always has been and always will be. I wakeup aching for her to be here. But I am also a rational person and I realized early that this was not about me and what I could do. I will not allow myself to give up on her, but she needs to see this is her road to travel and though she is doing things I do not agree with or support if and when she finds herself again I will be that constant in her life like I always have. But God almighty knows I die inside every night and day when she is not next to me. Or I don't hear from her.
Going on two weeks of no contact is like being cut with a razor 1 million times without rest. It burns, stings and just down right makes you wish you stopped breathing. BUT.... I will not give in. I will not break.... strength and honor..!
