Gogofo - LRT letter - planning a new beginning

[gogofo]

What exactly are you afraid of?

I don't know.

I know I built up false hope that she would change her mind if I pulled the pressure off.

I guess I am scared that this is the end. I am hurt that the love I feel for my W does not matter anymore. I am stuck on only wanting to love my W and mother of my children, not a new person. I am scared how this will effect our children. I am hurt and scared.

I understand the hurt, but I don't know why I feel scared. Maybe I am scared that now I have to move on and it is not my decision.