Sorry you've had a rough day. Remember, you may just need to give the ADs a little time to start working for you - and there may be an initial rough period with that, but it should pass soon.
Fact is, none of us have been perfect partners. And who wants a perfect partner anyways? It's important not to beat yourself up about things, Only look at them from the basis of understanding your contribution for the state of your M, in order that you can move forwards.
We all have things that we wished we had seen and done. But that is in the past, and we now only have the present and the future. Better days are just around the corner, so hang on in there - you're doing really well. You may not feel this, but I think you've done a great deal of introspection and it is still early days....so, good for you!
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
