GB- I kid you not - I was reading this as I ate lunch in my car and self medicated with an Almond Joy.
I know crying is not normal with you (as we have commiserated previously) - so I'm sorry to hear you are so down.
I am not, however, going to call you "crazy". To me the only normal reaction to essentially being a single mom with three kids and lots of external stressors, including an X who sounds like he harms more than he helps as a parent, is to have the occasional freak out.
You're not actually questioning whether you are loveable because of your X's actions are you? I am just going to say bluntly that the tastes of a middle aged, spiderman shirt wearing man who has shacked up with a hirsute coed, should not be given much weight.
I'm not going to appeal to your emotions right now - you do seem a "little" reluctant to accept compliments or affection from anyone other than your kids. And, my fiercely independent friend, is not logical - you clearly have many gifts and there would probably be some pretty awesome guys out there who would enjoy all the awesomeness that is GB and would want to ask her how her day is....please don't hurl.
And along those lines, I have a hard time accepting compliments too, but they aren't really "hurl-worthy"...it's not like they're those Jane Seymour open heart necklaces.
Normally I'd say hang tough - but maybe that good cry is just what you need right now.
Be well.
Oh- and thanks for letting me use "hirsute" in a sentence today.
