Post retreat situation

[Marylov]

Hi there! Things are going ok. I thought a lot about whether or not I wanted to bring up the conversation about his move out date. I decided against it. It just felt a bit selfish, I was really only doing it to calm my nerves, and I felt like by bringing it up I wasn’t doing a good job of detaching. So I have been busy GAL’ing, and had a great weekend with my D, family, and friends. It was really one of the best weekends I’ve had in a really long time.

So yesterday, my H came home, and was in a good mood, spending time with my D and me. And I asked him what he thought we should do about her upcoming B day. I was prepared for a very negative response, but he surprised me by going along with my idea to have a party for her, including his family and mine. He said it was going to be very awkward, and I said that I thought everyone would be mature enough to focus on our D for the day.

Then later that night, he gave me a brief update about how he is still having issues with his new living arrangement. He didn’t give me specifics. But I feel like that was his way of telling me he is still pursing it.

And I am okay with that. At this point, I have had plenty of time to get used to the idea.

I have told my three best childhood friends, all who live in different cities and don’t interact with us or our social circle, about our situation. Well today, they sent flowers to my house. He saw them, and saw who they were from, and he sent me a text, letting me know, and said “so I guess you told them.” I said yes, I told them three weeks ago. He then asked if I had told my best friend who does live in our city and knows all our friends. I said No, which is the truth. He didn’t respond.

I don’t know if he is upset, but honestly, he told me he was going to talk to his friend about our situation, so I don’t feel bad for doing the same. I was getting to be in a dark place and having my closest friends supporting me has been very helpful.