Gwen, I completely understand the desire to just “hibernate”. I have no energy for GAL. It happens when it happens.

Sometime I think that it would be easier if H died. Yes, there would be happy memories that would not be erased by the hurt and pain. I can tell your D16 is hurting. This is just so sad.

I have the moments of feeling very lonely, when I think that none of my friends or family care and I’m just by myself dealing with this. It is getting better though. I started to feel like I want to change things around me, like I finally realized that I’m my own boss and can do whatever I want with my house and my life. Isn’t it interesting? I think I’m starting to understand what it feels like to drop the rope.

Hang in there, Gwen. One day at a time.

M:50
H:52
S28 (my S from previous marriage)
M:17 + 3
BD: 06/12
S: 06/12 - H works in another state