Part 12 - Contents may vary

[Ggrass]

It's alright I tuned up xh re s17 walking the streets.
you know perhaps I should not have, but for many years he would have thrown a huge tanite and made threats.

Finally I got I about 8 truth darts. Which didn't go down very friggen well. But no abuse.

[edz]

Hi Gg, did you go into that before, dont remember you talking about it but possible i missed a posting. Dont need to if you dont want to though

[edz]

Ah just caught up with that on your thread Gg

[edz]

Well, we're off to the library as soon as I can get small stuff to get his ever loving socks on

Have a cappuccino Gg

Catch you all soon

[Ggrass]

I made a big custard, only ate half, but I ate dinner too!

My desires are returning, well from the flue for food.

I thought the s17 stuff should be in my thread, not littlering up yours.

[edz]

Thanks gg yes made complete sense as does your approach on it, only so many times you can hold up the road runner signpost he has to want to follow it!

Not sure I should comment on desires returning (ducks)

[edz]

Ahh well, just taken s back. Stayed for a coffee but then made sure to go without trying to hang on. Didn't want to as I wasn't looking forward to the empty house but did with a smile of my face.

Been a great weekend and a bonus Monday, back to getting on now.

W still isn't too well but s has an early art course tomorrow so wasn't really a sensible option except for him to go back sadly. W wasn't too talkative which I tried not to take personally as she's probably not feeling like a long conversation. Working out what I can do this evening to avoid going too emo will sort dinner shortly and maybe a bath and a movie. Back in the office tomorrow and swimming tomorrow night.

Hate the downswing I get when he goes back and there's no one here.. It'll pass soon enough.

[edz]

One dinner and a soak in the bath later headed for bed and fired up a couple of movies.

Some days it's easy this evening not so much.

Anyway just felt like journalling.

[Sotto]

Hi Edz, sorry you're having a low evening. I've noticed you always feel a bit down coming back home after some time with S...it will pass my friend.

Well, I had a long day out. Full day with clients at work, then dinner. Just got home - robe on, glass of wine, DB catch up...

Enjoy your movies...:-)

[edz]

Hi toots

Its being with him, my family and then on my own again, throws it into sharp relief again momentarily I'm going back through it all. Gets easier each time and its really a case of magnifying feeling lonely.

It'll pass. It gets better each time.