Just after BD he told me he was jealous because I was so self-aware (ironic because BD made me question everything I thought I knew about myself and my life), and he "knows nothing about himself." He said he doesn't know his feelings or opinions on ANY topic. I find that mind boggling! And also sad.
I've heard that before as well. H has told me several times he was envious of me and how I handled things. That I was, "so self assured, and didn't take anyone's [censored] and wanted to be more like me." The irony of it all -- those are now things that he "hates" about me.
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So I totally get what his journey is. And I hope he makes it to a place where he knows himself better. But it does really suck.
I would caution you about "getting what the journey is" - because often as you go down this path -- you'll discover that the journey is not at all what you think it may be. Sometimes it is, sometimes it isn't -- but I've learned that the moment you think you have it nailed down, it blows up in your face. Again.
Not to be a debbie downer -- just trying to provide some advice. :-)
Stay positive and keep up with the AD's. They helped a lot during the first of my sitch.
M:32,H 32 T:10, M5 BD/H Move Out: 9/2014 - extreme anger H Mental Illness Diagnosis: 4/15 Served D Papers: 10/15 Divorced: 11/15
