Still having a rough day here due to transitioning onto ADs. It's causing me to be more down, but I keep reminding myself it's just temporary.

Keep going over stuff in my head and I'm feeling so guilty today. H must have felt like I didn't love him as he was and he couldn't be himself around me...and that realisation feels awful... I know it's not entirely my fault, because he molded himself because of his people pleasing, but my criticisms definitely didn't help.

I know I need not to focus on the future but it's all rattling around in my head today and I keep going over the guilt.

Me 28 / H 28
M 1 / T 2.5
BOMB 12-3-14 "I don't feel like myself any more"
Still living together, separate rooms.