Thanks Ahoy and Squiggy. Just keep trying to remind myself this is to be expected and I need to allow the ADs time to have an effect... It would be really nice to have some space in my mind.
The good thing about this is that I'm glad H is away when I started on the ADs because I don't want him to see me like this, and it would be really hard to fake an upbeat attitude.
Not sure where the line is between soul searching and bashing myself repeatedly over the head with the same questions. :P
I'm just feeling guilty today, and sad. Sad and sorry I had no idea I was hurting H or that he was suffering, when that was the last thing I wanted to do. Sorry I was blind to it.
Me 28 / H 28 M 1 / T 2.5 BOMB 12-3-14 "I don't feel like myself any more" Still living together, separate rooms.