What the?

[BFloat]

I felt a sadness today which I haven't felt in a long time. Most days I'm on this clear path moving forward. Where I plan things for the kids and I.. Where I consider selling my place and wondering where to move..

But then there are these moments... This morning I woke up and my closet doors were open. Everything is hung very neatly and I had been labelling stuff the day before... I looked at everything and thought, I have a lot of stuff! And then suddenly I could actually picture what it looked like when H's stuff was hanging on his side of the closet.. And it made me sad... Not for H. But for all that has changed.

Things I don't miss..
-tiptoeing around H and trying not to rock the boat with him
-feeling anxious every time he was on his phone texting
-feeling not good enough after discovering the EAs and the PA
-always trying to be accommodating to keep him happy

My lesson for today.. Close the closet doors before going to bed.