Gogofo - LRT letter - planning a new beginning

[gogofo]

I just reviewed the LRT pages in the DR. I think I have been doing an okay job, but find it more difficult to do when we are sharing a house together.

I think what I need to do is spend more time in the basement and start to decline invitations to have a glass of wine at the end of the night. I will need to be mentally tougher to do this.

Right now I am feeling that when we have a glass of wine and talk that I may be doing a positive towards a possible reconciliation. I don't know if that is what is really going on or if I am just too scared to stop this interaction because it brings me pleasure.

I want to do what might work, even if it goes against my feelings.

I may need to set a personal boundary about these interactions and talks. I get to feeling that there may be a chance she will change, but then she finally brought up the money issue last night that the L needs to figure child support. This was a 2x4 from her for sure. It did not hurt to bad, but I was upset when I went to sleep.

Right now I am stuck between having talks with W at night about our lives, work, etc. OR removing myself from these situations. I just don't know what to do.

I doubt it will change anything, but I want to do whatever will give me my best chance.

I had a good GAL weekend though. Thursday and Friday I was out of town for work. Friday night I hung out with some friends. Saturday night I went out of town to a boat show and came home late. Sunday I worked on and loaded furniture from the house that we are selling.

I only really talked with the W a little on Sunday morning and then for an hour last night while having a glass of wine.