Gulp. Got it. Thought I was moving past. Feels like letting go. It's a process... Or re-process.
D13 is hurting real bad right now. I know she feels abandoned and replaced. I hate that she is seeing the man in her life spend time with someone he hops into bed with. She's no dummy she sees him staying over there and not coming around. Don't want her to think that you need to do that to get or keep a man. How she sees her dad choosing that route and it is leaving her empty and w/I him. That really bothers me that he is doing this to her.
I can only show her how to handle herself. I have to be the strong role model for her. That's my commitment and focus. It will drive me.
Over the weekend she asked to stay at my moms out of town, which she never really asks. She slept in my bed and this morning cried and cried bc she hates being in our town. She hates "everyone" she is so frustrated and couldn't get up. It's finally starting to hit her. She just found out that he has a daughter and he didn't see d13 of talk to her all weekend (and pretty much the past few weeks) bc he was there.
I know- let it go. Just processing d13's stuff right now. I will be strong for her. And s17 both.
