My head is completly up my A**e after this weekend. I thought I was done. I was starting to feel detached. I was starting to feel positive about moving out and then she hit me with all this at weekend. She was her driving it. She was so upset all weekend. I've never seen her like. I just couldnt be tough on her. I think reality has suddendly just kicked in for her. That i am moving out and that we are going to have to tell our D8. She was aking me what i wanted her to do and although i desperatly wanted to say "sell up and never see om again we can fix this" i didnt. I just said i cant tell you what to do. You need to find out for yourself. We were a lot more honest. We spoke more deeply and intensley than we have in many years. although i know she is holding back a bit on the timeline. I know because i found other stuff (stumbled across it) which confirms she has been fantasing about it for longer. So even if PA was only last 6 months or so she has been EA for a lot longer. I dont care about that. It hurts but im no angel If she felt safe with me she wouldnt have been interested. She has just made it so bloody hard by throwing things out there about having children with me and never marrying anyone else she thinks she'll be alone, reading success stories wanting to put her rings back on annoyed that im now the man she wanted me to be back years ago. I just cant take it. She's just dangling me on a string. I know what you are saying. For my own sanity i need to detach from her. I need to let her go. We need some space. I cant think straight at all. AHHHHH my head is truly going to explode today.
Me:40 W:35 D:8 T:13 M:10 WAW: 7/14 PA Discovered: 1/15 at least 6 months Moved out and moved on
