KGirl - letting the past go

[KGirl]

Maybe it's this anxiety about the possibility of dating, I don't know, but I'm feeling the "whys" creep in again and I hate it. I feel like they'll never really go away. The "Why did this have to happen?" and "Why exactly did he feel like he had to leave?" and "Why wasn't I a good enough partner?" and "What is wrong with him??" and "What is wrong with ME??" I still find myself wondering what exactly lead to this, especially because his answers have been so confusing (he'll say "It's not about you, this is all about me" and then a minute later "you always made me feel guilty until proven innocent, you always thought I was doing something bad.") Is it really about him, or is it about me? And if it was about me why was he unwilling to work with me? Or was it all really about his crush at work and everything was just BS to disguise that and I should ignore it?

Uggggh... *BIG SIGH*.