Bright, Please try to remember that when in MLC, they will do the opposite of what they once did pre-MLC. Sure, he's wearing a bracelet. The things that he would never have worn, said or did before are being done now. You may be still "expecting" him to behave and dress the way he use to...drop those expectations because he's not going to be that way any longer. Sure, he may look physically the same, but the internal war going on inside is going to cause some changes on the outside, i.e., dressing, aging, etc. It's sad, but it's the truth.
If viewing FB is going to upset you because of the things that are being posted, then don't look at it. I know, you are curious to see what he's doing and trust me, it's not a bed of roses for them.
As for looking at him and feeling a bit disgusted. That's normal, they expressions change during MLC and the twinkle in their eyes disappear and they then have "shark eyes". The depression does this to them.
Bright, what you are feeling is normal, but you are creating more pain and hurt by looking at his FB page. Put it aside until you are stronger or better yet, don't look at it at all. I can tell it hurts to the core.
Please take care of yourself. You had a busy week last week and hopefully this one will be a bit easier and less stressful for you.
