Spent the day yesterday chilling and cleaning the house. Had some GAL activity today, D16 and I went to an art festival, ate and stopped at Target on the way home.
H and I were watching TV and I mentioned D13's practice location has changed, he usually brings her on Thursday. He then told me he would bring her Monday because he was leaving Thursday to go see "army buddy." So here is where I am, I don't know if he is going to see his friend or meet an OW. I know I am supposed to accept that he doesn't want to be married anymore. What I don't have to accept is living this way.
Just don't think I can do it anymore. I want and need more. I love him, I want this marriage to work, but not at the expense of me. Part of my life has been on hold for close to 7 years because of his choice to work overseas. Then, a year ago he comes home and tells me he wants a D but makes no move toward a D or toward reconciliation.
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since
