I just can't find anything that makes me feel better anymore.
Like, is something majorly wrong with me?
It was one year and 4 months ago since bd. I feel just as terrible as I did then, bc it's setback after setback.
OK, I have let go before, but I just don't know what it is this time. And, I don't know how that will get rid of everything inside.
D13 asked me to watch Grease with her- she's never seen. Plus there is a snow storm coming in. So we will chill tonight by the fire. Happy to be with the kids. Tormented inside. They don't even ask where xh is anymore. They haven't since the baby. (Only d13 did once) It's like one of those things they avoid. You know- don't ask questions you don't want to hear the answer to.
Well... they deserve each other over there. Honestly, I just feel bad for the kids in that house. They are living with some seriously messed up, untrustworthy, selfish adults.
