AJ- I'm like the Grinch. And you make my heart grow three sizes! Thank you for that really nice post. Just what I needed to hear.
Karma, Gwen, GB- Thanks for your support. I hope you girls are doing well with your amazing and strong selves. Its really good to hear from you.
Matt- I like how you put that- don't let the rest of the world miss out.... hmmm... never thought of it like that. And, I really have not been myself. In fact, I cant believe how much my appearance has changed. My dad took two pictures of me and s17 Friday night while we were out. He sent them to me last night, and I didn't even recognize myself! It was really freaky. I couldn't believe it bc it looked nothing like me! How TF does that happen?
Live- great quote. I don't know how far I've come... I don't. Sometimes I feel like I am on a treadmill... doing work but getting nowhere. Or, two steps forward, one step back, two steps forward.... one hundred steps back. Stay still. Two steps forward, one step back... and again...
But you are right. I have faced a lot. I've put myself out there, I get stronger every time. I have faced fears, and I have won some battles.
I felt in a way yesterday, that this is a blessing, because I know that I will get a lifetime supply of strength, lessons, tools, and many other things from this journey that I can use for the rest of my life.
I remember the Marlboro quote, "You've come a long way, baby." Ha. What's that have to do with cigarettes anyway? I don't get it.
Oh yeah, I saw my mom yesterday... she said she just got done meeting with xh for an hour and a half. He was like her mother since he was 17 years old and they haven't spoken in over a year. They had a very close r prior to bd. (She asked him to meet). Don't know what came of it, but I haven't heard from xh at all. My mom, like everyone, says, "Let him go." Xh hasn't been home since. Gone all weekend. I am pretty sure I saw his truck orbiting Earth last night.
