Susana (2) - Learning to detach

[susana4]

Having a rough morning... I find that mornings are the hardest time of day for me, I just have trouble getting started, especially since I often have dreams involving H (some good, some bad).

I'm just sick of feeling down so much. I know it hasn't been that long since my BD compared to many, but it feels like a long time to me.

And while I'm certainly doing a lot better than I was at first, often when I'm out GALing I just feel like I'm going through the motions, not really living life or enjoying myself. And when I'm between activities, or sometimes during them, I can't stop thinking about my sitch.

I know there are up days and down days and it's to be expected, but when I'm having a down day I just feel like I'm getting sucked back into the really dark place I was just after BD, and I wonder if I'll ever be able to enjoy life again.

The roller coaster's making me sick!