Yeah, had a busy morning. I have just mastered the tv box.
Another thing you don't need to be a bloke for, I used to get old off for touching technology so I didnt. Now I can record some of my fave shows which are always on when I am not here. So shows that are serries and I might work some times and miss things. No more, it's super easy to set.
Perhaps I should have recorded cc ii it real was a long drawn out saga to Linda! Given her affair with Paul meh! Makes me jaded. I see it ore as a over acted spoof, but it was meant to be a foray for hogan Into serrious acting. I think comedy was where he was talented and he should have stayed with dry humor.
This morning I was reflecting in the whole dynamic of arguments which were had.
The general structure of the argument used to go something like Issue as in son was assaulted.
I would express concerns for real issues, my concerns were invalidated then, I was drawn into defending my position ie why it was wrong. I had to listen to his justifcation of why it wasn't wrong ie sons behaviour demanded it.
Then It turned into you never told me this wasn't ok, this is an accident one off or mulitude of other reasons.
I was left telling a grown human what are adult normals and right from wrong. His behaivours for achieving this was to verbally abuse ie call names wh$&@ sl&$@ be accused of cheating which was all in h words heat of the moment things mistakes.
Yet I find it hard to reconcile that he knew it wasn't wrong because it's not something he would have done with others watching or in public. i struggle with the whole view I have being seen by most as right or wrong, but h view is if he does those things it's just a slip of him being human, but I know he will not tolerate those things being done to him.
I once insulted him and told him to stop being a Richard cranium! He tryed to destroy my personal property (as punishemnt) as that was the worst human insult to call a man. Totally unforgivable, but yet it was insults by which he argued.
When I tryed to set bounderies about argument staying civil disscusions ie I will not discus this until you can be calm. Was harsh seen as shutting him down, unless I agreed with him arguments were circluar and continued until h go his way.
I have been pondering about bounderies and while I might have used different words I believe the reasoning on those was sound.
So what I am looking at this "past" to improve things now and in the future? Well I'm thinking I need to look at my r, friend etc. See who reciprocates and adds value meets you half way.
Who can respect bounderies, who don't expect you to give up your standards to keep the peace. Not sure how to implement this but I'm sure it's more about being in the moment.
I guess that all shows I'm just circling digging to find my real issues.
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M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
You sound better today. No doubts women can handle tech, work with a lot of them and for them depending on the org chart reshuffle
H behaviour, well, yes. Insecurity abounds there as well as some other less than noble traits. Acting on my nans old advice I'll say he really could benefit from seeing a councillor to get to the bottom of his issues and leave it there I think!
I think looking at your circles of friends etc its concentric, those at the periphery are those likely to just agree and mirror, match what your doing and the like. As you get closer in those will be the ones who will agree and have your interests to heart but won't be afraid to give you a swift kick in the whooosits if you need it as you say though if there's a real split in values its an odd effect can mean you dont get on or just the opposite as there's a good compliment.
Only you know what will make you happy thinking in r terms, I know when I pondered the whole dating quandry this past few weeks I was wondering who would I be drawn to, a complete opposite of w in appearance and personality or would it just depend on them? What am I looking for in a person and how would they have to act for me to really be comfortable and relaxed and trusting. Difficult thoughts.
Keep going gg you're doing great, you heading out tomorrow to this event then or still staying home with lurgy?
Catch you later
M:44, W:46, S:10 M 13 years, T 15 BD:23/7/2014 W/S Moved to MIL: 23/7/2014 My new place: 21/11/2014 W/S back to flat 22/11/2014 W coming closer, talking 4/2015 Piecing 5/2015 Moving in again 6/2015
I will see re the going out headachy and meh, made a baked custard as its all I felt like and ate the lot. Ate the last coup,e of crumpets, but don't feel like the soup that is in the slow cooker. Making 2 lots of food was too much. Went off for a nap, didn't make it out the house feeling hot and cold hopefully this will be better by tomorrow.
It's just know how not to let someone work on your bounderies over many years, which h did, he pushed them back with each event at which you let the standard fall.
I have been doin that so long in not sure how to hold firm anymore. It's know that someone who will insist you slide your stanrdard is not someone you want. While I don't like the rhc saying no, I did repsect hi for doing so and being honnest a total 180 from h. Who would have said no and been not satisfied (well every thing with him was to whine about).
A man that can even articulate that well in a nice way is a 180 on h.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
The thing I forgot, was s17 rang today. We chatted almost record time 2 whole mins.
Thanked him for checking up on his Unwell mum, he wasn't he was doing a suttle money check for his plans. I was going to take him to the event that rhc was possibly going to. As we know flue set that wrong.
I'm not enabling s17 by giving him $, my concern is he's smoking and drinking so money will go to drink or smokes not event. As on Monday happy pma upbeat mummy bird, who, said the ily! Last week he forgot a minor thing and rang back and was given a second ily. kill them with kindness right?
Gal for today included getting up dresses and making food. Seeing as hounds are wanting to be my mate it's time to have a tub. 3 days while I cannot smell me they sure can and like what they smell.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
Bath candles glass of something nice and medicinal and a food treat then movie and take it easy mate
M:44, W:46, S:10 M 13 years, T 15 BD:23/7/2014 W/S Moved to MIL: 23/7/2014 My new place: 21/11/2014 W/S back to flat 22/11/2014 W coming closer, talking 4/2015 Piecing 5/2015 Moving in again 6/2015
But I do know hes capable of better. On the couch feeling like I don't want to work tomorrow. Need to decide and get the dr note tomorrow.
Gal via mustardseed, boy she did awesome tonight. Bgp for her. Should go have some soup. Finish the layer stuff but my heads not in the space.
No dinner tonight friends not going and I cannot be bothered to find anyone to go with.
Head aches all night kept waking me up, totally unmotivated. Took a load from the washer was planing to put another on, but just can't put head down to stop bed.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
M:44, W:46, S:10 M 13 years, T 15 BD:23/7/2014 W/S Moved to MIL: 23/7/2014 My new place: 21/11/2014 W/S back to flat 22/11/2014 W coming closer, talking 4/2015 Piecing 5/2015 Moving in again 6/2015
Well there's a turn up, got a message after 4.30 are you going to dinner we are!
Whoop whoopy, so headed out won snitty tray, a whole pile. Not sure how to freeze them not much room.
And a awesome time was had. This weeks goal is to make sure I'm there for second chance draw where I can be present to win a roast.
It was quiet we had a nice time. Feeling stuffed now. Thinking about using some sickies, because I'm still not 100% and just know others take leave for far less.
S17 dog went mental when I came home, but then they have hardly left my side for days. It was nice to be missed by the only entire male in in my house.
I think one of the mares might need a date with the stallion, which I was too sick to provide. So I will have to find time this week.
So gradually getting better.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
My beautiful long post got eaten by the Internet gremlins.
It's the one that makes Gg a millionaire, gives her all the RHC that exist to choose from, turns S16 into a prince and gets rid of Gg bug. Sorry Gg, I will project all the love and care that I can for my fabulous DB friend.
A couple of days rest and quiet seem like a great idea Gg. We need you on top form.
Was reading your beautiful post on gorgiabelles thread and it really resonated with me. Very wise. One day I will finish Georgia and Mays threads so I can post there, I am a little sensitive on posting when I have not read the threads fully. When I am tired I tend to give DB sex changes, so far this includes a sex change for Wonka, Train, BFT (Edz cat) and Lambie who is not a eweeeee but a ram. (Apologies am still embarrassed by it)
I am tackling the weight and am almost back to pre tax Nilla weight. Boot camp two days on the run.
Away to meet my Gamanon neophyte for lunch.
Take extra special care today precious gg,
Vanilla
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Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
he wasn't he was doing a suttle money check for his plans. I was going to take him to the event that rhc was possibly going to. As we know flue set that wrong. 
kill them with kindness right? 