Jbird#2 Separated Living Together Need Advice

[Jbird]

Karma thanks for the encouragement. Also making a list of things I won't miss about W is great advice.

I'll do it right now!

Things I won't miss about W.

Being cheated on or worrying about it.
Wondering if her OMen were better than me.
Listening to her complain about her coworkers or boss.
Her mood swings from happy to mad at the big dog in the house(me).
Her buying habits, buying on impulse with no thought or purpose.
Worrying about he relapsing on painkillers.
Wondering when the next BD is coming.
Waiting on her hand and foot without appreciation.
Her embellishing the truth and lying.
Trying to keep her away from people that will supply her pills.
Trying to understand her mental illnesses, what is real and what is faked.
Listening to her complain that her mother likes her brother and sister more than her.
(Since this last BD and W paying 2k for rapist brother's A, mom and daughter are close)
Trying to smooth out her arguments with the kids,
Walking on eggshells to please her, she can have friends I can't, she can send vibrator video to OM but she got mad at me when my first gf ( we were 14 yrs old we never even kissed) called me when my father died.
Wondering what prisioners she will sexted with!

Okay that's enough of what I wouldn't miss.

I will miss these things but not forever!

Our dates were fun, long talks, flirtatious and exciting.
When I felt she really loved me.
The happy days of our R and ML.

Okay I'm struggling to come up with things I will miss.

I have spent way too much time trying to fix her and I realize that now!
Still heartbroken, still got a lump in my throat but my brain is starting to function again.